Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Rainy Days



As I sit here friends, on a rainy day, in my room. I'm reflecting on the words of Bill Johnson. He is a Pastor to a church in California, and he has written many outstanding books! The one that I'm reading at this moment is called, "Supernatural Ways of Royalty" which he co-wrote with Kris Vallotton, another amazing writer! 
There is one small portion of his book that I would like to share with you, here it is: 

"When we dream with God, we become the masterpieces of His imagination." 

In this part of the book, he is talking about how we reproduce what we imagine!  And in this particular paragraph he is talking about how, when we set our minds on God, and let his dreams become our own... and we fully meditate on this it gets into our system, and we reproduce. As I came to the small, short, line above... a cord in me got played, and a thought crossed my mind. 

If we are the produce of His imagination, and we are exercising the same imagination... then think of the power of that process and how if we, as people were really to focus (Meditate) on God and the things of Him, then we can become the person were meant to be by simply changing our thinking! 
So the revelation is, our thought patterns and mindsets are worth more to our story than we give them credit for... 
Thoughts are not just thoughts but, tools and weapons. So by simply changing your thinking you can change the world by one thought, taking captive and changing it or stepping into that thought with authority... that's what it comes down to friends! 

So focus... set your eyes...take captive... and speak. What we have in us... and what we do with that is a big part of the bigger picture and the plan of God! 

May your rainy day be blessed with revelations! 

Kassidy



Monday, December 19, 2011

Christmas

Hello readers!
Just want to say Merry Christmas real quick before I jump into bed, and I mean jump! (I'm so ready for that mattress.) So Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year. Goodnight.... Just kidding! haha.



I just love Christmas, the lights, the decorations, the movies, the food. :) The shopping, the events! Oh, what JOY! This season has been so good, and by the way it started I know it will end well!  So deck those halls, Jingle those bells, and may your "Last Christmas" (where you gave away your heart.) not make this season bitter but, Jolly! Ho, Ho HO!
So this is a very silly, and ridiculous post but its how I'm feeling! :)

Love you, crazy bloggers!
 Happy Holidays,
Kassidy

Monday, December 5, 2011

Music

One of my favorite artist.... I love this video... for the song and for the beautiful landscape.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Jesus You Are Beautiful!


  


I know you are bringing forth a song from my heart
It's the song of an un-offended bride

When I cannot feel Your Presence
When the darkness closes in around me
You are bringing forth the song from my heart
It's the song of an un-offended bride

Jesus You're beautiful

I know that Your eyes are like flames of fire
I know that Your head is white as wool
I know that Your voice, it sounds like waters
Jesus, You're beautiful

When I feel the song's a thousand miles away
And I cannot hear your voice speaking
I just say Jesus You're beautiful

From the 2011 IHOPU Fascinate High School Conference
Kansas City Convention Center, July 15, 2011

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Releasing Your Strength...

So I've finished the book "Captivating" and now I'm reading it again....
God has taught me so much! And slowly but, surely, I'm letting go and becoming the person I'm meant to be... this adventure is starting out so promising.

Here I'll share some breakthrough moments:

- Been praying for more training in Worship and just places where I can really grow in that area, and last night I go to Concord- IHOP.... and there wasn't many people, so they offered me a place to sing. It was a divine appointment!

-Spoke up at a leadership meeting.

-Just let myself be me, at a leadership fellowship night, and I had the best time being me in a long time!

-Expressing my interest more often in Worship, and messages at Churches, etc. The responds from Christ is just so encouraging!

And so much more....

I'm beginning to see the things I've hidden not only expressed because of the courage I've been given lately, but excepted. I'm stunned at the path ahead, and to think that this journey is beginning! God continues to speak more promises, and words to me and to think I was going to give all this up, for the fame of the world... a couple years back! Go ahead call me, silly! I know I was....

UGH! If only I could open up my heart for all of you, so you can see the road ahead... and how you really can have a "Captivating" lifestyle if you let go and hold on to the hand of Christ!


Saturday, November 5, 2011

Haircut Season

 

So I need a haircut badly! What about this one, from "Devil Wears Prada"?


Tempting?

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Romance


Romance is not something that you have to wait for, its something that happens each day. It comes to you! You might be sitting in your room and there a voice whispers, "I love you, love!" For the romance I'm explaining comes from someone we all know very well.
Christ.
Jesus Christ.

For us woman we are all keeping our eye out for a romance, some of us practically drink of it! We are made for it but, often that place where romance is yelling is only kept alive... if we haven't tried to smuggle it... by shallow novels or music, or sadly sort term relationships. Sadly because of the curse these needs are not often met but, there is one who sees and in His quiet, mysterious, way he romances us all day long.
We often don't see the lengths that this man goes through to give us gifts which we often pass by...
Or words he speaks to us but, we don't even hear.

We are blind to the fact that Christ wants to romance us! Sit with us, tell us sweet things, show us and tell us secrets of things in us or around us. There is a fascinating relationship ready to take place if we open our eyes to see... what could really be with Christ. The picture below is one that makes me think of Him, after I'm done you will probably begin to see the love story that this man has with you through out your life.. and how there is a picture of this love in many different things...



When Gilbert comes back, (Sigh... one of my favorite movies!) the scene is intense when across the crowd they see each other, Anne and Gilbert. They've been parted for so long. Why this scene gets to me? Simple. Christ is continually at war and so are we, helping nurse those along the way...its hard sometimes going through all of that and missing each other some how in miscommunication or situations. He always comes through, and through the pain and suffering you meet Him again. And this picture is what comes to mind! When you open your eyes to this relationship, you go deeper... and learn so much, in ways never thought possible. Plus, the freedom!

Its everlasting, invigorating! A song to help inspire all of you!


Friday, October 7, 2011

Hiss

Over the last week I've been reading "Captivating" By John and Stasti Eldredge. Its an amazing book and I've been learning so much, about women, myself, and the mysteries behind wounds that all us women bare. 
And that last thing, is what I want to talk about! From the beginning of time we've been hurt... (Hence when Adam was silent.) And now in the present... I'm going to show you a clip from a movie that you probably all know! Now the part I want you to pay attention to is the beginning of the video....ready?





 After watching that can you relate? That voice that whispers pain, and failure... or maybe its simply "Your beauty is alright." Even though earlier I mentioned Adam, there was a voice... a snake that hissed something compelling. Even though women keep asking man why he didn't stand up in the beginning... the person that is really hurting us, is Satan himself. Words dance around our ears like wildfire from this snake and our question is why?

The beauty that was Satan's was given to us,
He was the most beautiful... the example of God's beauty, and when Satan was banished,
WE...women... was given his gift, us becoming the crown of creation!
Eve, means life. What does Satan come to do? 
Kill, Steal, and Destroy! 
His desire the exact opposite of what women are meant to do.... we give life thourgh baring children, nourishing, and helping others along by being vulnerable- a listening ear, etc. 
Who we are is the exact opposite of what Satan wants in this world! 
So just us living is a threat to Him! He is the living Haman, to our destined Esther life! He hisses, whispers, whatever to get us down... pain cuts deep when another word follows, after another. Oh! He knows it too! If he can slow us down, get us slammed than part of life is gone... We were meant to be a living Eden. 
BUT oh, that next part! When the King comes.... there is hope... Jesus will come. And honestly, that is how it looks and all goes down.The scene speaks for its self. YOU ARE MORE THAN YOU SEEM... I encourage you to read the book, "Captivating". 

I encourage you to study who you really are as a woman, in the Bible! 



Thursday, October 6, 2011

Learning from Steve Job's Life


So today I learned that the creator of Apple computers died, yes Steve Job's. Well, as a daughter of parents who both have their own businesses, and I who is keeping an eye out for the perfect way to spread my creativity, we, me and my mom, looked up the life of Steve Job's. This story is so encouraging I had to share!

~~~~~~~~Early Life~

Entrepreneur. Born Steven Paul Jobs on February 24, 1955, to Joanne Simpson and Abdulfattah "John" Jandali, two University of Wisconsin graduate students who gave their unnamed son up for adoption. His father Abdulfattah Jandali was a Syrian political science professor and his mother Joanne Simpson worked as a speech therapist. Shortly after Steve was placed for adoption, his biological parents married and had another child, Mona Simpson. It was not until Jobs was 27 that he was able to uncover information on his biological parents.


As an infant, Steven was adopted by Clara and Paul Jobs and named Steven Paul Jobs. Clara worked as an accountant and Paul was a Coast Guard veteran and machinist. The family lived in Mountain View within California's Silicone Valley. As a boy, Jobs and his father would work on electronics in the family garage. Paul would show his son how to take apart and reconstruct electronics, a hobby which instilled confidence, tenacity, and mechanical prowess in young Jobs.

While Jobs has always been an intelligent and innovative thinker, his youth was riddled with frustrations over formal schooling. In elementary school he was a prankster whose fourth grade teacher needed to bribe him to study. Jobs tested so well, however, that administrators wanted to skip him ahead to high school—a proposal his parents declined.

After he did enroll in high school, Jobs spent his free time at Hewlett-Packard. It was there that he befriended computer club guru Steve Wozniak. Wozniak was a brilliant computer engineer, and the two developed great respect for one another.

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Apple Computers


After high school, Jobs enrolled at Reed College in Portland, Oregon. Lacking direction, he dropped out of college after six months and spent the next 18 months dropping in on creative classes. Jobs later recounted how one course in calligraphy developed his love of typography.

In 1974, Jobs took a position as a video game designer with Atari. Several months later he left Atari to find spiritual enlightenment in India, traveling the continent and experimenting with psychedelic drugs. In 1976, when Jobs was just 21, he and Wozniak started Apple Computers. The duo started in the Jobs family garage, and funded their entrepreneurial venture after Jobs sold his Volkswagen bus and Wozniak sold his beloved scientific calculator.

Jobs and Wozniak are credited with revolutionizing the computer industry by democratizing the technology and making the machines smaller, cheaper, intuitive, and accessible to everyday consumers. The two conceived a series of user-friendly personal computers that they initially marketed for $666.66 each. Their first model, the Apple I, earned them $774,000. Three years after the release of their second model, the Apple II, sales increased 700 percent to $139 million dollars. In 1980, Apple Computer became a publically traded company with a market value of $1.2 billion on the very first day of trading. Jobs looked to marketing expert John Scully of Pepsi-Cola to help fill the role of Apple's President.

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Departure from Apple


However, the next several products from Apple suffered significant design flaws resulting in recalls and consumer disappointment. IBM suddenly surpassed Apple sales, and Apple had to compete with an IBM/PC dominated business world. In 1984 Apple released the Macintosh, marketing the computer as a piece of a counter culture lifestyle: romantic, youthful, creative. But despite positive sales and performance superior to IBM's PCs, the Macintosh was still not IBM compatible. Scully believed Jobs was hurting Apple, and executives began to phase him out.



In 1985, Jobs resigned as Apple's CEO to begin a new hardware and software company called NeXT, Inc. The following year Jobs purchased an animation company from George Lucas, which later became Pixar Animation Studios. Believing in Pixar's potential, Jobs initially invested $50 million of his own money into the company. Pixar Studios went on to produce wildly popular animation films such as Toy Story, Finding Nemo and The Incredibles. Pixar's films have netted $4 billion. The studio merged with Walt Disney in 2006, making Steve Jobs Disney's largest shareholder.

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Reinventing Apple


Despite Pixar's success, NeXT, Inc. floundered in its attempts to sell its specialized operating system to mainstream America. Apple eventually bought the company in 1997 for $429 million. That same year, Jobs returned to his post as Apple's CEO.

Much like Steve Jobs instigated Apple's success in the 1970s, he is credited with revitalizing the company in the 1990s. With a new management team, altered stock options, and a self-imposed annual salary of $1 a year, Jobs put Apple back on track. His ingenious products such as the iMac, effective branding campaigns, and stylish designs caught the attention of consumers once again.

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Pancreatic Cancer


In 2003, Jobs discovered he had a neuroendocrine tumor, a rare but operable form of pancreatic cancer. Instead of immediately opting for surgery, Jobs chose to alter his pescovegetarian diet while weighing Eastern treatment options. For nine months Jobs postponed surgery, making Apple's board of directors nervous. Executives feared that shareholders would pull their stocks if word got out that their CEO was ill. But in the end, Job's confidentiality took precedence over shareholder disclosure. In 2004, he had a successful surgery to remove the pancreatic tumor. True to form, in subsequent years Jobs has disclosed little about his health.

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Recent Innovations


In recent years, Apple has introduced such revolutionary products as the Macbook Air, iPod, and iPhone, all of which have dictated the evolution of modern technology. Almost immediately after Apple releases a new product, competitors scramble to produce comparable technologies. In 2007, Apple's quarterly reports were the company's most impressive statistics to date. Stocks were worth a record-breaking $199.99 a share, and the company boasted a staggering $1.58 billion dollar profit, an $18 billion dollar surplus in the bank, and zero debt.

In 2008, iTunes became the second biggest music retailer in America-second only to Wal-Mart. Half of Apple's current revenue comes from iTunes and iPod sales, with 200 million iPods sold and six billion songs downloaded. For these reasons, Apple has been rated No. 1 in America's Most Admired Companies, and No. 1 amongst Fortune 500 companies for returns to shareholders.

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TWO THINGS I'VE LEARNED...

One, that when you really pursue something, something is bound to happen! Steve Job's did not give up and took "reality" for what it was, he took his dream set his mind to it and made it be reality. The odds of this world was definitely against him but, (I love that word) he pushed through! Pursuing, something that you love is worth your life... and not only that but, pursuing is what makes life meaningful! Think about that, everything that we love we pursue which makes of our life as a whole. You love football, you make sure you watch it! Which makes of a good part of your life. If you love fashion well, you keep your eye on the styles and clothing stores around you and that can make up a good part of it too! Steve's love for the arts, made up his life into what it is... even though he is gone, his life of pursuing what he loved will live on... naturally because what you pursue becomes your life story. He will always be remembered by what he pursued. My question is what things are we pursuing to make up our life?





Two, creativity is success! Almost everyone with big names have gotten to where they are by creativity. Walt Disney, Bill Gates, Steve Job's, Beethoven, and many others! Hardly any of them got to where they are by book smarts, it was done by creativity! This is inspiring to me because, book smarts is not my strong point but creativity is... I, as a born Cathleen Kelly From "You've Got Mail" or Anne from "Anne of Green Gables", I live by things that capture my spirit! Books, paintings, photography, tea, creation, etc. I live on creativity, and in a world that says book smarts is the only way to success you can see my devastation. But to hear stories like this, you can imagine my delight. Look at God, his creativity is what made him head over all... without creativity there would be no us. Creativity is a strength that humanity looks over.
The heads of our country are even creative, they have to come up with the right speeches/words, the right look even to have a good career.

Creativity is success its self, and if you can be creative than you are on a way to success of some kind!




Sunday, October 2, 2011

Coming Alive



Fall is making me come alive, even when the world is dying. Its promoting beauty when soon the focal point of it will be death... but then again because of redemption a dying season is always followed by fruitful one, making the last all the more beautiful for the suffering! New seasons, new life which is exactly what I'm experiencing... now. I'm coming alive!

Friday, September 23, 2011

Sometimes..


Sometimes you need a little fire to satisfy your hunger!


Been craving these lately, and I realized a truth to this little saying... we need the fire of Christ to satisfy our hungery souls.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Walking Out.







"If we are never broken we can never be made whole." JJ Heller-- It takes pain, to go the next step... to go deeper and to have better relationships. Be vulnerable even if it hurts! 


This was my status today on Facebook, the reason because I am going through this very step. Why the picture? Because this is me, my true self.. a person that I tried to smuggle away. At the core of my being, I am loud, spontaneous, and deep. I took risk, I was the one who got out in the middle of everything and did something crazy when no one would, I would dance in the grocery store, I would be the person to push people into doing something that they wouldn't do.... and now I wish I had that part of me back. 


I try to smuggle my true self with the excuse that I'm being more mature. Last year, I had lied to myself by excepting that being meek was being quiet.... and now I am beginning to understand the real meaning of that verse. Its not a outside action but, a heart action... that verse has nothing with me being quiet exactly but, with me being open to listen continuing to what He says. It has nothing to do with me being quiet! 


Another thing that came out of that time, is me being afraid to trust... its a generational curse. I am afraid of being vulnerable, I'm afraid of getting hurt. And honestly, I hate it... and I have decided I am going to try my hardest, along with Christ, to brake through. For this very thing is entering into my relationship with Christ...and its simply not exceptionable. 
So even though its hard, we have to step into vulnerability even if it hurts... because if we don't then we will forever be in a dull, shallow place. We have to take risks in order to live... its a no brainer! 


So I am walking out of the person I am now, and getting back to the real Kassie...the one full of freedom, Joy, wisdom, and all the other things that I have decided to hide from people because of the level of fear in my heart of getting hurt. It won't be easy but, I have to do this! Because I can't be a healthy leader, if I'm not out of the bondage of fear for myself. God is healing me of this, and He has called me into vulnerability... so be ready Kassie is coming out!


Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Leadership Retreat...

Me and some of the other leaders... Do not ask me what I was doing with my mouth! :P

Were just real...

The party is hhheerrreeee.....

The lovely Seagrave couple shared with us thoughts on leadership

The night we went out for P. F. Changs... yummy yum yum!



You gotta love us! ;) I had so much fun spending time with all of them at the beach... oh the memories!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Journaling



Something i love to do is journal.... I love writing, drawing, etc. Which you can do both those things, and many more things in journals. The thing that I love to use journals for are ministry opportunities.... What I like to do is having journals for different people and then to pray into them.. and let the Spirit lead me in what to write or draw, etc. for or to that person.
I love this... because its a discreet way to pour into a persons life with, encouragment, words of knowledge, visions, and so much more!

I just wanted to share that idea with you all! Its one a great way to grow in the lord, and two a great way to spread the love of God!

Saturday, September 3, 2011

God Fullfils Promises


Friends,
I just had to share the exciting news! The words that have been spoken over me, and the things that God has confirmed are coming true.
Honestly, I've been second guessing those promises... just because I've been waiting so long! But God rewards those who obey, and friends ever sense my Birthday those promises have been answered immediately right after another!
Not only promises but, prayers. I prayed for a place where I could grow in relationships, have practice for the the things that God has called me to and where I can grow in school. Well, on my Birthday guess where I was.. The Daniel Academy. A school built out of IHOP. Its half homeschool, half Christian school and everything I asked for is there!

I prayed that God would bring me opportunities to grow in my calling of being a worship leader...that He has called me to be, and guess what? the music teacher at my school is teaching us in worship and she has offered to help us (me and my sisters)  after school hours with music and different things!

Also been praying about the ministry I've been thinking about, and God has brought different people into my life to partner in this! Also I'm part of the youth leadership team at my youth group... and I'm having so much fun pouring into the lives He is bringing in...which is something I've always wanted!

GOD FULFILLS PROMISES.... but these are prayers right? Well, all these things I've asked God about and He has continually said, "They will be answered." He has promised that these will come true... and that the call to be a worship leader will be, and me being a leader to my generation... That has already happened.

So many things happening, its a bit overwhelming...




Thursday, September 1, 2011

Lovesick...




love·sick:  Adjective: In love, or missing the person one loves, so much that one is unable to act normally


Today I am so lovesick, its serious! As I began to do the dishes I began to have a conversation with Christ. 


"I am so lovesick, its... I hate to say it but ridiculous." (Me) 


"If you think that little bit that your experiencing is ridiculous, then imagine what I feel! And  I can't even express my love-sickness as I desire, because my people reject me and some don't even know who I am!" (Christ) 

I could feel and hear the frustration, and the passion He has for His Bride! I thought about what He said, and I suddenly felt His emotions...Imagine being SO in love with a person that you die for them and come back but, their so confused, hurt, abused, by the very guy who killed you... that they don't know how to love you anymore! Or rather... He has lied to them for so long that they don't even know who you are! 


I would die, if the people I love didn't know how to love me, or didn't even remember my name! Christ loves us SO MUCH... I am even more lovesick... and I so wish and pray that all us will get this...that HE LOVES US! He loves His people, even the ones who don't know Him and have ran away from His arms. 
I am now consumed with mourning for my brothers and sisters, for they do not know my Jesus like I do but, if they did.... oh how much joy, love, etc they would experience and encounter! 

(So one let Christ know how much you love and adore Him, and two simply share Christ love...not by shouting "Your going to Hell!" not by "Saying come to my Church!"... for those bring strings into relationships...there is plenty of time later when they begin to trust and know that Christ really does love them...when you can share that.  Just be there... like Christ is always there. For more people right now need the comforting, to be lead to the revelations, to be lead the teachings. ) 


Oh my... I am so lovesick right now!













A Date...

A Few words to Share~~~~~~~~~~~~

So I'm starting to plan date-mornings, date-nights with my beloved! Yes, dates with Christ...
I'm really excited, I already have some ideas. Coffee of course, and other things... You wish you knew! ;)
 
I just want to share a point fairly quick, that Jesus loves when we treat Him like a actual person. I can't stand the way we talk about Him like he isn't around He more, because He's around alright!
 
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 Anyways... Here is a verse I wanted to share.
 
Song of Solomon 2:16
My lover is mine, and I am his.

I've been doing a study on this at MikeBickle.com, it is so good! This one verse has inspired me so much... I encourage you to check it out!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Breath

This song was birthed out of knowing that God's breath is Peace, Joy, Goodness, the fruit of the Spirit, and how when His Spirit comes so does those things. I wrote this at the Fascinate Conference... there was a melody that kept going through my head and then the words came, and here is the song! I do ask that you do not use these without permission, thanks.


Breathe---- into me,
Breathe---- into me,

Holy Spirit come withen,
and breathe into meee...

Spirit come in...
Take possesson of my soul,
Take my breath away----

Breatheee----- into me!
Breatheee into my soul,
Into my inner man to make me whole.

Breathe into me,
Breathe into meee!

So we'll breatheee... in!
Breatheee in!

We're breathen in!
We're breathen in!
Oxgen becoming our second breath!

So we'll breathe in,
Breatheee... in!

Breatheee... breathe, breathe, breathe, etc.

His breath is our breath!
His breath is our breath!

His breath is our breath!

We're breathen in!
We're breathen in!

Breathe, breathe, breathe.

We're breathen in!
We're breathen in!
Oxgen becoming our second breath!

We're breathen in!
We're breathen in!
Oxgen becoming our second breath!

We're breathen in!
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
We're breathen in!
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

A New Year.


So my birthday was a week ago, and to tell you the truth the beginning of this next year was trying and it brought many promises by the faces that filled it!
A year ago I was shy, not many friends that shared the passions that consume my heart at this moment and above all I was not as deep in the ocean of God's emotions for me as I am now!
This year coming I know is going to be very promising... God has given me words on His desire for me to enter into the worship ministry, a ministry that many people don't get the important's of, to enter into leadership positions, to enter into relationships..so much has been spoken!

One of the best things that has happened is the songs that have been birthed from these words, and encounters. There is nothing like your own song being sung as worship to Christ!
Another thing is, the passion of Christ for the up coming year is overwhelming and honestly I don't know how to handle the exciting Jesus that is meeting me often... Ugh! I cannot explain the glances, and the face that looks down on me with pleasure. I'm experiencing the first time I fell in love with Christ in these weeks, a time I had forgotten in the rush of time.

I am now looking at the ocean of His emotions ahead of me, and I am getting ready to swim, to dive, to drown and to swim the miles to go to the island of Paradise that is hidden in my heart for one.

I challenge the rest of you to ask Christ to come and remind you of the first time you fell in love with Him, and to swim in His ocean of emotions! There is truly nothing like it... I pray that the Spirit of David will rise in your soul and you will be consumed with the fire of His heart!

Friday, August 5, 2011

The Battle of a Warrior

Some of you know of a commitment I made a year and a half ago. A commitment I made to Christ, to focus on Him for a year! A year of learning, experiencing, pressing, building, etc. This year has truly been rewarding in SO many ways, its also been a battle. Espeacilly the last couple of days...
It started Saturday night, at first it was an amazing encounter! But then doubt came and beganing beating me down, laziness was the next thing that set in, along with exhaustion. Today has been the hardest, yesterday lies flooded my head, today I'm so tired I'm shaking just typing this out. At first I didn't understand but, now I do for this month is when I turn seventeen! The age God said he would reveal what He wanted me to do with the ministry ideas, etc.
I'm being tested, I'm being battled with the desion of whether or not to trust in God to see me through to this next year, and MUCH more!
This is my Caspian moment, all I have to do is say 'no', and then fight it out! Push on with a cry to Heaven! This is my Ester moment, to report the Haman that is tormenting! This is my Stallion moment, to run my race and into the arms of my Master! This is my moment, to enter into the throneroom with a sacerfice in my hands to lay before the King of kings!

Today, I found myself in my room crying out to Jesus... something I haven't done in a while. I mean really crying, tears and all! I learned something though as I was in my room, that I have no idea who I am marrying. I only know a small dose of that person, I also learned that as that bride I have a on going battle to fight anyway... the battle that is raging against my groom for just being the Saviour, period.
I am a warrior Bride, of a warrior Groom. As I declared things in worship and prayer...life came to me in a whisper, through Jesus's voice one of the most refreshing sounds.
You see the lie that has been pushing me is, "Your just hurting Him if you go on, can you really bear doing that again and again?" I could not get my mind around this lie. It kept playing again and again!
That morning I decided I'll put in my JOY Cd and just press in...that always makes me feel better.
Even though at that moment the lie sounded pretty convencing, I know that Jesus is the one that could reveal the truth of this lie.
So I turned on the CD, and as I just pressed in and began to pray... the presence of God came, and soon I was overwhelmed with the promises of God. The Love of Christ, and so much more!
It was one of the most amzing times I've ever had, so much freedom was felt and a new prespective was born in my heart.
The warrior Spirit was soon present and I started to notice what was going on in my heart and in the atmosphere! I soon remembered the story of Esther, the story of David, the story of John the Bastist and how all of them went through Spirtual triles and natural ones. I learned that a warrior is built on tradgey, and God is best glorified in these because He is able to intervene at His best...and we are able to believe and trust at our best! David prayed for trils because He knew this, and I have to say that day when I was put to the test I was better for it because I was given the chance to believe and run to Jesus, out of weakness just to be made strong in being vulnerable to the Savior.

Here is one of the songs that really pushed me through, and that God used to speak to me that day.




Saturday, July 23, 2011

Promises...

God is setting up this generation of Teens to be marked my His will, and power!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Fascinated!

So I went to IHOP's Fascinate conference! It was sssssoooo amazing...

I encourage you to go to this link and listen to the speakers, and the worship!

Sessions 




This was worship one morning...so good right?
The testimony of this past weekend will be posted soon as possible!


Friday, July 8, 2011

Enlightenment

Just now as I was reading a article by the Botkin Sisters, I was enlightened by something I've found... Here is a small, effective, part of it...the very part that enlightened me.

"On the other hand, if our days now are introspectively focused on our own personal issues and needs and interests, what makes us think we will suddenly become outward-focused and kingdom-focused when we marry?"


As I read this I started thinking of everything I was going for now, in my singleness. I keep the house clean for my family, I keep the meals for the home steady as I can, I am focusing the things I feel God wants me to accomplish right now, If God's will I might start a group for girls... these last couple of months I didn't understand why my will was not pleasing...and because things were not how I think they should be, I felt as if my singleness was being wasted. Then God called me into a new light and now being reminded of the thing I am doing and pursuing inspite of what I want...I'm finding that what I've always wanted is what I'm doing now!
God is molding my focus outward... and by the new leads in my life I see the prosperity it is bringing in this new perspective.
I'm encouraged, that what I'm doing is right... and I pray it will keep so, and I pray for all of you ladies that are seeking the life on your own homestead one day. But remember that one of the best times to be focused in these ways are now! Think of so many things you can do? Give lessons on crochet to girls, open a book club, do a over the phone devotion with a girl who is going through something trying... we have so many advantages, we must learn to take advantage of them!

So I encourage all of you. have a open mind and explore the opportunities in the Kingdom!

Monday, July 4, 2011

Independence Day!


Happy Independence day!
As I sit here... I'm thinking of why I love this day, and the explanation is in the name. Independence Day... those men who signed, were being independent to men and dependent upon God! The hardest thing man can do, but the most courageous and brave!
They stood for the truth, they stood for the basics, they stood for providence!

We are truely blessed! Thank you God, and thank you Congress at the time for standing for what you believe in!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

We are Good...

So my revelation this morning was really amazing! It brought such freedom... and joy into my life and I just have to share it with you.
Okay..so for the longest time, the whole "Are you a good?" person thing got under my skin. I just knew that wasn't right... The question that would go through my head  and that would always nag at me when this question came was this, "If we are bad, then how come God said after he was finished with creation 'It is very good!'? And we are made in God's image and God's image is not bad at all, and it is very far from that!"
This morning the revelation that hit me was this, we are naturally not bad people... I am not a bad person, its the contamination of the spirit of sin and the spirit of self relience, and weakness out of that I make bad desicions. You see when God made us, he made us to be vulnerable to Him, not to be vulnerable this world because He gave us domian over it! We were made to be dependant on Him, not self reliant. Made to gonverner creation, in strength. But because of the knowledge of Good and evil, set in we became weak to both because it was to much for us to handled on our own, self reliants is not a virtue but a weakness. This all happened in the beginning....
But when Jesus came, he died for all sin commited and all we're going to commit. He took that burden, and forgot it, to redeem our natural spirit of good. Then He sent his Spirit to brake the spirit of self reliants, and into help strengthen into the strength of being vulnerabe to God! Because of God's wonderful mercy, and He restoring the ability to be good in our lives, it is to Him we owe! Now the reason He is coming back, is to rescue us completly from this earth and to completly destroy the evil that still tries to lure us away from Him, with the lie that independance in self is the best way and to complete the work in our hearts! You see, even though we are good, because of the restoring from the love of Jesus and the goodness of God placed in us at the beginning of time- simply because we were made in His image, (You see its because of Him in us we are good.) He is going to give us even more purity and strength in the end, and finelly to brake completly the spirit of self reliants from our devoted souls!


For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. Romans 8:29

I thank God, that He made us good. That He broke us free from sin, and restored us. That He is continuing to help us in the strength of being vulnerable!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

He is Not What He Seems...

A revelation I had this weekend at camp, which I didn't know I really had until this morning, is that the Spirit is so important and fun!


I hardly knew Him until this weekend, where the revelation that he is really a person and not an emotion, or a element but, a very strong relation to the three. I knew this before but, I still treated him as a third wheel to the three!

I thought of him as a element to bring myself to the Lord's heart, and to God's, me not really thinking that the Spirit might want to show me who he was in the realm of the supernatural and just in my life!

Last night, when I was at youth, the Spirit brought a picture of who he is, and what he was doing. I saw him rubbing against us, like Toothless in "How to Train Your Dragon."

The Spirit is that dragon, and as I began to reflect on that movie and the story line I noticed that me seeing that picture was important to understanding the Spirit!



We really don't see the Spirit as we should, we are often afraid of it because of how out-going and free it is! We fight against it like the Vikings fought Toothless, because we don't understand its power and the greatness to its depth... and because of a lack of understanding we push it away in fear, and the lack of wisdom in this area of knowing who he is, is what makes us hold back.

When Hiccup brought down Toothless, he was expecting him to lash out, He wasn't expecting him to be as gentle as he was, and that's how we are, we have an image of what we think the Spirit is and we really have no idea how he is, and we really don't know him at all!

We put a cap on him because were so sure he is going to be this demanding, aggressive, thing that we don't know how to relate with, when really we begin to know him he is not like that at all! When Hiccup first sees that glimmer of gentleness, which is what draws him to Toothless because he realizes, in his heart of hearts, that this dragon is different than what it seems to be like. So it opens up his heart to trust, understanding, and fascination, which are the things that draws us to the Spirit in the first steps of getting to know him.

So then Hiccup makes the effort to know Toothless, and when Toothless sees the truth of Hiccup's heart, and sees Hiccup's trust in him that’s when the friendship takes place, and Toothless takes him to those high places, and when he begins to show him the root cause of injustice and fear, and why some things are the way they are. Like when Toothless, takes him to the nest, Hiccup begins to see the deeper part of troubles that are happening.

After that when they come back, the girl makes a certain remark that I think we can relate to, "You’re going to keep, "finding the nest" a secret, just to save your pet dragon?" Hiccup said yes, like the lot of us would. We say yes a lot of the time because we’re afraid of telling the root problem of our pain, irritation, etc. Having fear that it will hurt our relationship with God, or other people, which is a lie!

It will make those relationships stronger, and give you freedom in a way you never had before! When Hiccup goes to fight the other dragon, he can't do it because he knows that the problem is not the dragon its self but, the root behind its malice is what is driving it to kill the people of the village.

The same can be said for our hearts towards people, we have to remember the root of their attitudes when they are cruel to us! Its often because they excepted the weakness of the enemy and turned their gaze off of God. There is then something under the service that is making them cruel, offensive, prideful, etc. and that’s when we have to have compassion because of their weakness.



Next, in the end, when Hiccup and Toothless destroy the root problem of injustices that have been going on in that presence time, it’s because Hiccup learned to trust, and him and Toothless had a loyalty for each other! When we let ourselves trust and be vulnerable with the Spirit, we become leaders of battle, promise, worship, etc! If you look at Hiccup at the beginning of the movie, and then him at the end there is a difference! He looked past the voices, the difficulties, the rejection, and went for that relationship with love and passion.



When I talked to my mom this morning, the three persons are like a family. God the father, Jesus the son, and the Spirit like the mother. The one who nurtures, and gives guidance, here are some verses that tells this:



26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.



``John 14:26



7 But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I go, I will send Him to you. 8 And He, when He comes, will convict the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment; 9 concerning sin, because they do not believe in Me; 10 and concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father and you no longer see Me; 11 and concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world has been judged.



``John 16:7-11



"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will"



Romans 8:26-27 (NIV)



That last verse serves my last point. If a mother was to leave the family, there would be



complete chaos. The mothering nurturing spirit would not be there to guide the children, keep the house in order (the Church), direct them in relationships, and to help them understand things. How much more would there be if the Spirit was gone from the three? We see it a good bit in our own lives, it still flows enough for us to know God but, when you learn to live by the Spirit that’s when the strength comes, and the good starts to flow from the deepest parts of our core!

So it is to our well being that the Spirit is able to come at the power it does, because the Spirit of God is what brings conviction, wisdom, deliverance, etc. Without living vulnerably to the Spirit, God, Jesus, we are weak!

Self reliant is not strength but weakness, we have accepted the world’s view of strength and we have to learn to live in the drive of the Spirit, and not our own flesh!




Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Two Songs!

These two songs they sang at camp! I encourage you to worship to these songs they are so powerful in meaning!



This video below, is actually the closest I could find of this song..to show you the type of experience we had at camp! Almost everyone was dancing the last night, it was truely amazing!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Reflections...



So this past weekend I went to my youth group's camp. The theme this year was overflow!
It was so amazing!!! God was just all over the place... in the games, in the fellowship, in the service, in the preperation, just everything.
As I look back to where I was before I went, I see a heart nicely orignized, just not in the right way!
My talents had been moved to a shelf, my thoughts of God had been pretty settle, not as much thought as there should have been. I thought it was alright, I was working on getting the "Ladies of Femininity" things together and to my eyes everything was fine, and to the blind parts of my soul it looked okay. There, even in my blindness, I knew there was hunger that was raging, I could feel it!
If you then looked at the house in my heart in the middle of the weekend, you probably would have seen a ramaged mess! Things were being turned around, stuck in different places, things were on the floor. I was being changed and challenged, far more than I had been the last couple of weeks.
The words that were spoken in the prayers of many who prayed for me was, "That she will have boldness. Give her courage!"
I have been struggling with that, actually sharing my dreams, talents, words, with others in person. Even praying!
So as I stepped out this weekend, got to get to know people I didn't know... praying outloud among people, and just with the presesnce of God on my life and in me getting me to think and push harder, I saw myself in a new light, not shy but, bold! Not silent but, loud! I was pulled from my comfort zone for sure, which I'm glad, my life was getting little to easy, as it can seem to get sometimes!

The last night we were there, last night, a spirit of joy broke into the room we all were in! Some began dancing, others began to clap their hands, and some started laughing. The energy was rapturous, and as we began to be detoxified of the things holding us back and impurities, and as we began to get intoxicated by God and His spirit, I noticed a freedom to do almost anything. I have to admit, I did have second thoughts when the worship began to get crazy, I'm more of a reserved person and it takes the Holy-Spirit to get me out of that and into dancing, and other things. I'm hoping though that I will be able to brake from that, and to take more liberty to speak more!

All in all, the weekend was amazing. It was one of the most refreshing weekend's I've had in a while. Oh, also they had a prayer room and it was so nice just to sit in complete surender to God, and just let His spirit melt your heart! I will, be sharing more later... Now listening to Julie Meyer! Whooo!!! :)

May the spirit lead you, God bless!

Monday, May 30, 2011

Avioding Situations...

Dear Readers,
I have to say even though I have not been spending time with God like I should, He surely does speak to you even if you don't speak to Him. He has spoke through blog post of friends, words of fellow chums and even the foolishness of the world!
His creation is so beautiful, and sometimes I find my self wishing I could literally take my bed place it  in the middle of a field and sleep there.
I also find my self lately wishing for more time with friends and wanting to just be with people but, then after those long thoughts, and talks with invisible people and me realizing my real motives for wanting persons company is because I am either avioding a situation with my self or trying to aviod something God wants me to do.
Its really trying... and this time I find that its a situation with my self! Lately I've been wondering about my future, my past and if in the end, I will truely be happy with the life I've lived or atleast tried to live. I am finding that just now, in this year, I am actually discovering my real self and who I am, what my motives are, my beliefs etc.
So far I have found that my entire life is built on other people. Which for someone who hardly talks to anyone in person or has close friendship with hardly anyone as of late. Its odd that it is built on the very thing I hardly know of... It is not entirly bad but, when others opinoin of your self become the prime of who you think you are, then it becomes a problem.
So now I'm trying to step back, relax, and focus on things in my self that need to change. That actually reminds me of a quote from the "Dawn Treader", which we watched last night. It says:

"You must first defeat the darkness in your self, to defeat the darkness out there."

How true that is... I've been trying to change the world from a outside in perspective but, really you must change the world from a inside out perspective, changing your self first and then your self will act of the heart, and into the world with pure actions when you get your heart in the right place.
So really when I aviod the situations going on inside, I am avioding changing the world.
So in these next seasons while grasping the heart of God and grace for my self, I'm going to try not to aviod the situation that needs most attention, changing my self and just letting God lead me in who I really am.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Something New!

Dear friends,
I have noticed that views and everyday life are hard to combine on one blog. So I have created a second blog for my everyday life... and then this one will be used for my veiws and encounters with God!

Here is my new blog:

Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!

Passe: means old fashioned~

I hope you enjoy!
Kassidy

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Busyness!

Dear Friends,
sorry for not posting. I am in Cleveland, Tennessee! :) I am with my cousins visiting them and watching them, with the help of my parents, while their parents are off to a conference! So ten people in one house... its been fun. We are going hiking tomorrow and then swimming at a lake. I love the outdoors, they inspire me beyond my own mind.
I am not promising any pictures... because I am noticing I haven't been keeping my word in that area! (Sorry.)


I hope you all have a great week, God bless!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

An Interesting Conversation!

As some of you know, I go to IHOP (International. House. Of. Prayer.) and being a part of IHOP I've been tested and told things about it. Like its a "cult"- "Julie Meyer is a false prophet" and so forth. Now I know some of you don't believe in some of the things of the Spirit but, here is a conversation I wanted to share.
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Hey!
I might be going to IHOP's (International House of Prayer) high school conference FASCINATE this summer, and I was just wondering if any rebelutionaries were going?

I was thinking of turning the trip to the conference into a ministry idea and car pooling from Orlando Florida, with some high schoolers that would like to go and with chaperons of course, to Kansas City for the conference ... but that is still up in the air at this point.

If you don't know what IHOP is, here is a link: http://www.ihop.org/ (IHOP is awesome, by the way.) 

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Kassie,

I felt that I should post this - while I sincerely hope I do not offend you, I must defend the gospel.

Please watch this video, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgXb7yIlDNc

I know the content of what Mr. Friel says in the video is true! This is not a movement that we as Rebelutionaries should be involved in! I would beg anyone reading this, please do not attend an International House of Prayer meeting! While prayer is wonderful, the teachings in this movement are unbiblical. 

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 This is me...

I watched the video. I've heard this for awhile, and I have done my research but, I was wondering how it is unbiblical?
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The other girl...

Kassie Burke wrote:
I watched the video. I've heard this for awhile, and I have done my research but, I was wondering how it is unbiblical?


The IHOP movement is unbiblical in many ways, one of those ways being their worship serivces. In the worship serivces there is a lot of repetition, which is part of the new-age mysticism movement. In one video I watched of an IHOP meeting the people there repeated one line in a song for two hours, in another instance I heard of a young man was told by an IHOP leader to repeat a scripture over and over for 2 hours - or until he "recieved Revelation from God". Nowhere in the Bible does it tell us to act this way.
There have been many, many reports of young people leaving an IHOP conference and not remembering what they had just seen because they felt they were in a "state of hypnosis". This is caused by repetitive, hypnotic sounds which can induce trance-like states by focusing the brain’s attention on a minimal set of sensory inputs.
Just because the words to the songs are about Jesus does not mean that they are okay! (See 1 Peter 5:8, 1 Corinthians 14:15 and Galatians 5:22-23)

Another instance is the common "jerking, twitching, and lack of sanity" that comes over many of the IHOP leaders as they pray. This was the description one young lady shared when she came back from an IHOP conference. We know that a lack of sanity or being unable to control ourselves is not of God! The Bible tells us in many passages that God commands us to be sober, and the dictionary tells us that definition of that word is not only free from alochol and drugs, but also being self-restrained and rational.

One girl emailed me and asked (as response to my previous post) "How can prayer be "wonderful" and right when the teaching is wrong?"
The answer to this is that when a man tells us how we must pray then it is unbiblical.

A young woman (we'll call her Alice) graduated high school and decided to go into the IHOP ministry as an intern, little did she know what she was getting into. She spent several months living at the IHOP "ministry" to learn under the leaders. She recalls spending hours and hours in the prayer room, yet for the entire time she was there she never once talked to God from her heart. While she was in the prayer room she was required to pray certain prayers (There's Catholocism mixed into this movement too) and fill out worksheets. They were requred to stay in the prayer room for 2 hours - no exceptions for any reason. She said there were leaders who always stood like guards blocking the door preventing any of the interns from leaving. There were many mentally damaging things that happened to this young lady, when she left she had expected to be on fire for God and rejoicing in Him. Instead she left in a state of serious depression and the only thing she wanted to do was warn others of the extreme danger of this movement.


I could go on - but I think I've provided enough evidence that this movement is unbiblical. So, I hope someone who reads this can agree with me that the only "IHOP" we should be attending is the International House Of Pancakes. 

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 A friend to help...

________, I am guessing that Kassie has talked to her parents, and they've probably decided that this is okay. There is different denominations in the church of God...Baptist, Protestant, Presbyterian, Assemblies of God, Carasmatic, and so forth. This could be jsut another denomination. My church does no do that long of worship liek that, BUT we do have worship sometimes where there are repeated lines....it's a crying plea, or a uplifting praise. The jerking and twisting are manifestations of the Holy Spirit, kind of like praying in tongues. I'm not exactly sure what your church believes on this, but I think that there are definate physical characteriscs that happen, like the jerking and twisting.

I'm not saying any of this confrontationally, but you need to make sure that you go on all grounds before you tell someone that something is evil!

If you have any questions, I'm not an expert but I'm able to answer some. PM ME!!!

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The other girl's reply....
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The jerking and twisting are manifestations of the Holy Spirit, kind of like praying in tongues. I'm not exactly sure what your church believes on this, but I think that there are definate physical characteriscs that happen, like the jerking and twisting.


Britt, I'm really not trying to be confrontational, but I'm just wondering why you think that jerking and twisting are signs of the Holy Spirit? As far as I can see in the Bible when people are unable to control their bodies it is caused demon possession, not the Holy Spirit. The Bible calls us to be sober. 

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MY REPLY... 


All I say is this... on the day of Pentecost what do you believe happened? Because a lot more crazy things happened there then anything that has happened at IHOP. I know lots of people personaly that have gone to IHOP and I've seen them before they've gone, and when they came back. And they were more on fire when they came back... then when they went! I've seen the fruits of this "movement". God does call us to be self controlled to a extent but, when David danced for God and all his clothes fell off. God did not rebuke Him but, rebuke His wife! The holy spirit is apart of God, you cannot control God! John the baptist said in Mattew:


"I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire. Matthew 3:11

IN Acts Jesus says:

4 On one occasion, while he was eating with them, he gave them this command: “Do not leave Jerusalem, but wait for the gift my Father promised, which you have heard me speak about. 5 For John baptized with[a] water, but in a few days you will be baptized with[b] the Holy Spirit.” Acts 1:4-5


You can't shake fire off. The only way to get it off is by putting it out... but if you put fire out, then its out! God comes as a flame and that is simply what the spirit is and I don't want that flame to go out because if it does you will lose it!
When God said for us to be sober he meant for us to not get so (overly) zealous for God that we start slashing peoples ears off, like Peter. Or yell at them to become Christians... A lot of the time we get overly zealous, frustrated, legalistic, etc. with people. So Him wanting us to be sober, is really a warning for us to not push people around or make them feel guilty so they will except Christ! He was not warning us against His spirit!
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Now everyone before you point fingers here, I been on both sides so.... 


Just thought I would share... Kassie

Thursday, May 5, 2011

My Journal Entry- Part 3. (Story of Esther)

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After that I began to push my self to spend more time with Him. 
Here is a conversation I had in this time with Him:

-"God, I want a conversation with you."
* "Talk to me."
- "What do you truly want to teach me?"
* "My love for you."
- "God, I don't deserve you."
* "I know. (The 'I know' is a inside joke. Maybe I'll share it later. ;))
- "So why did you choose me?"
* "Kassie, it take many plants to make a garden but, only one to fill its one place perfectly."
- "Still, why me?"
* "Because no one could fill it as perfect as you can. My plans for you were made for you and you only!"
- "Me only?"
*"You alone I plan these plans for. Your call made for you, you must except the vision."
-"Help me step out of darkness, fully. Pull me out!"
* "I'm not going to make you love me, you have to decide."
-"I do want you."
*"Be a hero, not a victim."
-"God help me..."
*"I will and have, I love you."
-"I love you too, my Groom."
* "My Bride."

To tell you the truth, this conversation was so real! That it was hard for me to grasp that it was reality!
One thing I've learned is that a lot of the time we except Christ because at one time we loved Him but, lost the vision of His loveliness somehow or we except because its the right thing to do or because its a generational thing. Mine was the first... I don't really know how it happened... I think part of it was my mind set was just warped!

The next things He said was "Touch the door knob."- "I use youth! For wonders, it starts in youth and blossoms later." (Youth as in childhood or teen years.)
I thought He still was talking of my ministry but, He wasn't.
When He was talking of youth He was trying to remind me of the times where I, as a child cryed for Him. Me literally belting "I am a Friend of God." I finally got what He was saying when I read, the first couple of chapters of "Enjoying God." He talks of Ezekiel 16:1-6 This is where I realized what He was reminding me of a deeper love realationship I was ready for.

"Later, I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love." (Stop)

There that small part Jesus said "We were friends when you were a child, now I'm calling you deeper." (Gosh, I feel like I'm in one of those "perfect" romantic movies Hollywood always make! Except mine is real!!!!!... Everything I've ever dreamed for, Jesus is... He is my perfect match!)
Him saying "Touch the door knob." was Him wanting me to open the door of a deeper, more intimate realitionship with Him, and to fully rejoyce the way I was made to rejoyce!
My day of blossoming had come. I had to pursue it!
The next week, I just pursued God. Spent hours just thinking about Him. All through out the day, God just said "I love you!" I've been so tickled by what God has done and just Him in general!
I love Him! In pursuing Him, He has kissed me more than once with a verse. My two favorites are, Songs of Songs 1:1 and Philemon 1:7.

Songs of Songs 1:1 He said: "Love is my favorite song.
Philemon 1:7 - I find my self melting through out the day, by His simple touch on my spirit. It's hard to fathom but, yet not.

He has also called me His Esther. Which I didn't understand at first but, I do now! Last night my youth pastor, Nick, talked about laying down your desire for His desire. He talked of the narrow road, like a tunnel, we try to take in our own desires but it doesn't work, because the road is to narrow. They just won't fit! My favorite part was He talked about the path broadning once we fully start to desire Him, and really pursue.
After that the story of Esther clicked in my head. The narrow path is, like the training stage just like in the story of Esther how the virgins were chosen to be taken to the palace, they had to lay their past behind, all all they had for the desire of the King. They had to be trained a full year, before they entered to the King. Esther was chosen because of the God in her, even if the King didn't know at the time. When Esther's training was over and she entered the chamber of the king and all he had for her. Her training was done, it was her time to honor Him!
She had nothing to offer the king but, herself and she did that, she devoted herself to the King's desire even in training when she didn't know him at all! 
That's what God wants me to do now, be trained by Him. Him training me to love him fully and study His ways that way I can do the best for Him, give Him the love he so fully desires.
I have to be trained though... If I'm being training by God then, I'm all for it.

The next part that He showed me, is just like the story of Esther: Esther had to bring up her past to save her people. God said this: "There will be a time where those ideas will need to be used to save a people, then they will be used."
Kassie.


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That was the end of that one.... but for those that read your Bible. ;) You know the story doesn't stop there! So I shall post more of My Journal- on a different day!

Thanks for reading and thanks for just taking the time to hear my story and what God's doing!