A Journal Entry- Part one.

Dear Dairy,
I'm merely going to tell you my favorite part of my journey, it started about a month ago. I started wondering about my future and of others. God then spoke to me and said "Why are you looking for attention else where, don't you know I love you?"
I guess what I realized is I was putting God on hold, not realizing that His love is what I was looking for.

I had a vision that week of me in a beautiful throne room, absolutely beautiful! Gold and marble floors and walls, gold doors. Ruby red tiles in the pattern on the floor. Grand!
I saw my self in a beautiful gown, white. Hair up in a elegant up-do. I was dancing with different young men each one representing a distraction from over the years. (I told you I was going to get vulnerable.)

At each turn one would disappear and then another would take the ones place. As I was dancing with one, another figure came into the room His suit, one a prince would wear. It was pure white, gold buttons, a red sash a cross the chest, pins of great things done on the left side of His chest.
He had finely cut hair, handsome. I couldn't see His face for it was glowing! (I remember the feeling I felt while I was having this vision, I knew this was the first time I had ever really seen or experienced Jesus. I was so nervous... like how you get when your around someone you really like.)
 The young man I was dancing with disappeared, He then took my hands and we danced, and then He took me out these doors on to a balcony and there I saw a shining kingdom, the houses gold, the grass so green and lush, beautiful plants, a perfect sunset, animals grazing and running.
There He said, "I give you a kingdom, not only freedom but, a paradise. For us, forever. I love you!"

I didn't know what to do, at the time I was mad and frustrated, had acted incretible odd for how I was normally. (Really guys it was werid! I was not my self... it was something else. I can't discribe what I felt, it was just werid!)  The other thing was, is that in this time I felt God/ Jesus really wanting me to wait and not do the ministry ideas till later.
I felt a burning want for God but, didn't know how to handle it by not doing anything.

He kept saying things like "Useing you to an ability you haven't imaged yet, thats why you don't know what to do." - Paint Your Picture - "Already have." - "Wait on me."- "I love you!"

There were times when I got so frustrated I ignored God. But He would just keep pursuing me. He sent me cardneils in my frustrated moments, reminding me that He loved me!
I didn't understand, so I began to feel like my passion and wisdom was dying because I wasn't "doing" anything. Funny hugh?

The next things He said was; " You need to understand the vision." This I was thinking, "Oh to be a mother, I need to gain back the vision of being a mother!"
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The Bride

People twirling in circles,
Beating feet on the ground,
Passion flowing through their hands,
A song being chanted of deep love,
It takes me deeper.
Dancing is passion and rest.

Swaying fabric of White,
Gold and,
burgande.
Tasels and jewels are shown,

The colors,
Jewels show,
The riches of the King of kings!

Bare feet for reverence!
Lush hair,
Healthy skin of cream!
Beauty pure,
Clean.
The wealth the beauty and wonder of her soul,
The want of being pursued by the Lord of lords!

She is His Bride,
He is her Prize!
Forever passionetely dancing,
The Kingdom is dancing!

Another vision... I had.

Jesus the dying Lover

One step a step towards freedom,
A crown of thorns, they mock me.
The lover you know as your own,
Killed for all the things you try to hide

Blood drops to the ground,
It echos in my ears,
As I take another step towards tribulation.

On His face was pain,
On His face was mourning.
The very tears mocked me,
Me remembering all the times I have pushed Him aside,
All the times I've let go to temptation.

Each slash on His back,

Wrote a story,
Each one He beared for a person,
A people.
I can only imagine the torment He felt!

He did this for me!
Thoughts beat at Me,
"Its all your fault!"
"If it wasn't for you,
He wouldn't have to do that."
Then He takes those thoughts in His Hands,
Crushes them,
And the words flow from His lips "IT is finished!"

He yells "No longer Satan will you torcher MY Bride,
Because she is mine!"
He smiles down into my face,
For when I collapsed out of weariness,
Out of pain
He was there to catch me in His arms!
All this for Love,
How much better can it get?
He whispers "Better still."

Now we stand hand in hand but,
I still look back at that day,
To remember the most beautiful love story that ever took place,
All for me, and you.
He loves US!

War

Life is short,
And is in barren lands.
A place where evil manifest,
Where ever it can fit!
Satan's battle ground.
How do we survive?
How do we fight?
No materiel sword can defeat,
No mere human can win by self.

Oh but if you cry,
If you praise,
If you give your self body and soul,
Unto One.
You will see a war greater than flesh,
 Be won-
The air will scream Holy is the One who Made me,
An then you will see the war of Spirit and Flesh.

Evil can rise and say,
I am the Most High.
For that he cries,
Lying to Him self in desperation,
Wanting it to be Truth!
But Thanks be to God,
its a lie and always will be!

Be warned brethren,
The shadows many times,
Tries to swallow up the Light,
But never succeeding!
Them warring for your soul and mine,
For if his identity is realized then,
The war is done,
And all Heaven rejoices!

For Light always comes,
The next day.
The sun always shines when the hour comes,
Light flourish onward and is always high in the sky!
Because God is Higher still,
And will ALWAYS rule on His throne!

Beauty

Beauty is found in the tale of Beauty and the Beast! I love this tale... it shows true wealth, is pure character!

My favorite illustrated version is by Max Eilenberg, the illustration by Angela Barret. 

I wanted to share with you her bold words:

"Why should I," answered Beauty, "it would be very needless, for my father shall not suffer upon my account, since the monster will accept of one of his daughters, I will deliver myself up to all his fury, and I am very happy in thinking that my death will save my father's life, and be a proof of my tender love for him."

This reminds me of how we have the privledge of being martyrs for our God! 

The merchant was so afflicted at the thoughts of losing his daughter, that he had quite forgot the chest full of gold, but at night when he retired to rest, no sooner had he shut his chamber door, than, to his great astonishment, he found it by his bedside; he was determined, however, not to tell his children, that he was grown rich, because they would have wanted to return to town, and he was resolved not to leave the country; but he trusted Beauty with the secret, who informed him, that two gentlemen came in his absence, and courted her sisters; she begged her father to consent to their marriage, and give them fortunes, for she was so good, that she loved them and forgave heartily all their ill usage. These wicked creatures rubbed their eyes with an onion to force some tears when they parted with their sister, but her brothers were really concerned. Beauty was the only one who did not shed tears at parting, because she would not increase their uneasiness.


She was bold in her mission to save her family! How we should be for the body of Christ- she was placed in a hard situation but, found the good in it and stepped forth and took it as a responsibility of her own!

"No, dear Beast," said Beauty, "you must not die. Live to be my husband; from this moment I give you my hand, and swear to be none but yours. Alas! I thought I had only a friendship for you, but the grief I now feel convinces me, that I cannot live without you." Beauty scarce had pronounced these words, when she saw the palace sparkle with light; and fireworks, instruments of music, everything seemed to give notice of some great event. But nothing could fix her attention; she turned to her dear Beast, for whom she trembled with fear; but how great was her surprise! Beast was disappeared, and she saw, at her feet, one of the loveliest princes that eye ever beheld; who returned her thanks for having put an end to the charm, under which he had so long resembled a Beast. Though this prince was worthy of all her attention, she could not forbear asking where Beast was.


Many times the thing that turns bad for the better is a true women of virtue, of stregth, of dignity! Beast may not look like a prince but, in the end he was- A heart is what makes a prince, not riches, not looks but, a pure selfless heart!
What a beautiful picture is created when two unperfect but, trying souls make the choice to stay pure and selfless for each other till the day when they say "I do."
Purity is beautiful- and thats where we are right now as the bride of Chirst, He wants us to make the choice because being pure is freedom and sweetness to this dull world!
Salt enhances flavor, pepper dulls it out!

A Dance!

The grass kisses my bare feet,
So do the wild flowers that grow near and far.
I was called to this place,
By a voice like the wind.

His voice was fair and gentle,
His smile joyous with radiant awe!
I cannot explain the twinkle in His eye or
The youth in His step,
All I know,
 Is that it was my lover,
 Calling me with a voice like thunder,
And sweet tempered heavenly speech.

"Come away with me",
He said enchantingly.
"Draw me away.",
I replied, entranced by His Spirit.

The tune was rapturous,
We danced playfully in the mid- day breeze,
Where His creation sung with Thee!
He took me in His arms,
The melody slow,
I closed my eyes and breathed deeply,
I could feel His heart singing over me!

I looked into His eyes and they glemed,
"He loves me" I thought.
He smiled, I smiled in return.
Our steps took us around the fire,
And our thoughts were passionately alluring.
The steps became faster,
Our song louder.
We were dancing for His Kingdom,
For each other.

We came into each other grasp,
And as we collided,
So did our hearts!
Thats when He whispered
"Dance with Me,
Into eterity!"

Kassidy R. M. Burke


This was was a vision I had of Me with Jesus. :)  

Presence of One- Another poem.

Grasses bend beneth the breeze,
Trees bow to the wind,
The sun burns hot,
Withen its self is a raging fire.

I stand in the grass watching the trees bend.
The sun on my face,
Its rays burning me inside and out!

We are like the tree,
Growing in many different ways towards ONE hope,
Bending in the presence of God,
 And feeling His burning passion.

He whispers His breath is peace,
He sends rain to remind me of the grace he grants me,
For He says it comes in buckets and blows like a storm!
He is not still but,
Violent for Me,
 As the King was for Helen of Troy!

The nerves in my stomuch cry for joy,
For His fragrace is near,
My body shakes in emotion,
The tears drop,
 Like the rain drops of grace he sends me.
He places a hand on my shoulders and whispers "I am Here."

But the tears roll faster and my heart pounds on the door of my chest,
I can feel his passion!
He wants me,
Oh He wants Me!
He loves me,
Till death but oh and then,
Our life will only begin together,
Forever as ONE!

Love in The Afternoon...

Birds tweet,
Birds fly in a flutter,
Their wings meet the sky,
They sing and rustle with tweets again,
Butterflies dance,

My voice meets the air as I walk about thy garden,
The rays of sun bounce off my bonnet,
I see a figure standing there,
There I wander and I stand as eye an eye meet,
They both stand.
For time has set them apart for a season,
But now they meet again with wringing hands.

The waters trickle in the spring,
The fountain is silent and the air dry,
No storm in the distances,
Only one in the heart.

Silent is what meets the eyes and what the ear hears,
Not a step made not a word spoken,
Just one silent glance,
Just one smile shown,
The two people here and there,
Gladly watching eachother. 

Kassidy R. M. Burke

Jospeh My Cousin!

So I had a conversation about Jesus with my three year old cousin this past weekend. He started it while eating his peanut butter sandwich! Here is what our conversation looked like...

"Kassie, Jesus is singing m-m-m-m- MMM m-m-m- MMM (Ode to Joy)"- Joseph "He is?" Me "Yeah he's singing M-m-m-m MMM m-m-!"

 "Heaven is in the sun/son." I didn't know what son/sun he was talking about...

Then he said "Jesus is in the sun." He said that also a couple of times! 

He then said "He can't hear you singing Kassie.."- Joseph "He can't? Yes he can." -Me "No...Because he is in the sun!" Joseph.
Then Joseph said "He can hear you now Kassie!" he smiled so big then...

That was our conversation....Now he is known of talking very profound and his siblings as well.
After that little convo I really started thinking about the things he said! The words kept coming to my mind... So I decided to research... After that I was so amazed by what I found that I had to tell my aunt- his mom about it! Now through this I asked God to help me understand what this little guy was trying to communicate here, he did! Here is the message:

Hey,


I had a conversation with Joseph in the kitchen and I want you to know about it... Joseph was eating lunch when he started talking to me about Jesus. He said a couple of things that made me stop and think... These are the things he said "Kassie, Jesus is singing m-m-m-m- MMM m-m-m- MMM (Ode to Joy)"- Joseph "He is?" Me "Yeah he's singing M-m-m-m MMM m-m-!"



I looked up that song because I forgot the lyrics, also because I was researching something else he said. he kept saying it over and over again...and I just didn't want to take his four year old words an push them aside because of his age.... He said that "Heaven was in the sun/son." I didn't know what son/sun he was talking about...well if you read the first verse of "Ode to Joy" you will understand. I put it below...



Joyful, joyful, we adore Thee, God of glory, Lord of love;

Hearts unfold like flowers before Thee, opening to the sun above.

Melt the clouds of sin and sadness; drive the dark of doubt away;

Giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the light of day!



So he was talking about Heaven is in Jesus...far as character and freedom and when are hearts are melted we will have heaven on earth!



Then he said "Jesus is in the sun." He said that also a couple of times! Look at the next verse of "Ode to Joy"



All Thy works with joy surround Thee, earth and heaven reflect Thy rays,

Stars and angels sing around Thee, center of unbroken praise.

Field and forest, vale and mountain, flowery meadow, flashing sea,

Singing bird and flowing fountain call us to rejoice in Thee.



He was saying that Jesus is light- Jesus is in the light of God. He is the way the truth and the light :)



He then said "He can't hear you singing Kassie.."- Joseph "He can't? Yes he can." -Me "No...Because he is in the sun!" Joseph. This caught me off guard because I know Jesus is always with us... well if you look at John 17:1-26 Jesus is praying that we will know the Father as He knows Him. What Joseph was saying is- sometimes Jesus steps into the light of the father so we will know his Fatherly side! So the Jesus "side" may not hear us but at that point, God the Father is hearing us. Do you get it?

Then Joseph said "He can hear you now Kassie!" he smiled so big then...

I've been really thinking about this the last couple of days and its because God was trying to talk through Joseph's four year old speech!


Love you guys!

Kassie
 
How amazing is that? All this week I felt like God wanted me to look into this more and I learned a lot. 
I hope that blessed ya'll- Your Friend Kassie!

Vulnerable

Friends,
I am entering a new season of vulnerability with God! I am going to share with you the deepest parts of my journey. God is calling me to dive deeper, climb higher, and reach like I've never reached before. When God first notified me of my performance life and light weighted- almost weak relationship with Him, I was frustrated saying-asking "God I am doing everything I know how to do, this is to much! What else do you want?"
What I didn't realize is... He wasn't calling me to do anything, when He first spoke the song "Pursue Love", that I posted so many weeks ago, He was letting me realize that I needed to step back- rest, relax, in His arms.
About a year ago...I think...I was coming back from church with my aunt and I was annoyed with how some people dressed for church. I didn't understand then, God does not care what you wear to church... as long as you are in his presence. I'm not saying that modesty does not matter but, it is secondary to the first commandment which is: Love. 
Once we get a understanding of love, it will open up our hearts for the understanding of other things.
It starts with love!
Anyway, I had a legalistic spirit then. Well as I began to share my thoughts she began to share hers... I don't know how we got to a specific part of our conversation but, I remember her closing her eyes and saying "Kassie, I see a glass heart and its broken and you are trying SO hard to put the pieces back together but, its not working. God is saying 'Rest, let me do that.' She then opened her eyes and then said "God is calling you into a time of rest...I believe this year coming up (16), is going to be amazing and you are going to go deeper."
Its been deep alright!

As Christians we focus so much on doing and not resting, I'm not saying we need to throw our responsibilities out the window... what I'm saying is we need to realize that pursuing God does not stop, He so longs for a bride who is on fire for Him just because we love him so much! Duty is secondary to a intimate, deep relationship with God.
Now before I came to this revelation of Him just wanting my heart, I was trying to be the super homemaker, getting up at seven, doing my devotions, making breakfast, and getting my chores done by ten and then getting all my school work done by twelve thirty, so I could then get lunch done by one and then have the rest of the afternoon to crochet, read, write, etc. Having that goal is good, don't get me wrong but, what you don't know is I had church almost every single night and I was helping my grandparents at the office and I was trying to start a ministry, oh and help many different websites with things and blog! My to do list was endless and my time with God was getting down to just church. My life was very performanced...the worst of it was that when I didn't get all that I needed done. I would get over whelmed! I might even cry... Part of the reason for doing all these things is because I thought it would bring my relationship with God closer and others would know of His love.... I was missing though, that I my self didn't even know what love was or that duty needs to come out of a deep relationship with God not just because... He said so.

I was hurting my self...also there were times when I would cry and say "God this Christian thing is way to hard!" I felt like giving up...letting go...of course I knew that the other side is worse and that would be stupid of me. I wasn't going to... to tell you the truth! That's when God showed me the true side of knowing Him!

Resting in Him is so relaxing... so as I dive deeper and share with you my experiences... I hope you experience Him as well!

Hey

Everyone,
I have been experiencing God like never before... not only Him but his love!
I am reading an amazing book called "Enjoying God" by S.J. Hill. It is a must read for EVERYONE.
I have not only began t understand the jealous love God has for me but, have also experienced awesome things... and learned so much I can't write it down fast enough!


Also I wanted to post this podcast by teacher S.J. Hill... he spoke to us Sunday.
This podcast is so good: Joyful Jesus

I would love if you shared your thoughts on the podcast... :)

The love of God is truly amazing, overwhelming, perfect, precious, so many words!
I wish I had time to share the things I've been learning over the last couple of weeks but... time as I'm learning is a vacuum! :P Love you all... God is so beautiful!