Reflections...

So this past weekend I went to my youth group's camp. The theme this year was overflow!
It was so amazing!!! God was just all over the place... in the games, in the fellowship, in the service, in the preperation, just everything.
As I look back to where I was before I went, I see a heart nicely orignized, just not in the right way!
My talents had been moved to a shelf, my thoughts of God had been pretty settle, not as much thought as there should have been. I thought it was alright, I was working on getting the "Ladies of Femininity" things together and to my eyes everything was fine, and to the blind parts of my soul it looked okay. There, even in my blindness, I knew there was hunger that was raging, I could feel it!
If you then looked at the house in my heart in the middle of the weekend, you probably would have seen a ramaged mess! Things were being turned around, stuck in different places, things were on the floor. I was being changed and challenged, far more than I had been the last couple of weeks.
The words that were spoken in the prayers of many who prayed for me was, "That she will have boldness. Give her courage!"
I have been struggling with that, actually sharing my dreams, talents, words, with others in person. Even praying!
So as I stepped out this weekend, got to get to know people I didn't know... praying outloud among people, and just with the presesnce of God on my life and in me getting me to think and push harder, I saw myself in a new light, not shy but, bold! Not silent but, loud! I was pulled from my comfort zone for sure, which I'm glad, my life was getting little to easy, as it can seem to get sometimes!

The last night we were there, last night, a spirit of joy broke into the room we all were in! Some began dancing, others began to clap their hands, and some started laughing. The energy was rapturous, and as we began to be detoxified of the things holding us back and impurities, and as we began to get intoxicated by God and His spirit, I noticed a freedom to do almost anything. I have to admit, I did have second thoughts when the worship began to get crazy, I'm more of a reserved person and it takes the Holy-Spirit to get me out of that and into dancing, and other things. I'm hoping though that I will be able to brake from that, and to take more liberty to speak more!

All in all, the weekend was amazing. It was one of the most refreshing weekend's I've had in a while. Oh, also they had a prayer room and it was so nice just to sit in complete surender to God, and just let His spirit melt your heart! I will, be sharing more later... Now listening to Julie Meyer! Whooo!!! :)

May the spirit lead you, God bless!