Walking Out.

"If we are never broken we can never be made whole." JJ Heller-- It takes pain, to go the next step... to go deeper and to have better relationships. Be vulnerable even if it hurts! 


This was my status today on Facebook, the reason because I am going through this very step. Why the picture? Because this is me, my true self.. a person that I tried to smuggle away. At the core of my being, I am loud, spontaneous, and deep. I took risk, I was the one who got out in the middle of everything and did something crazy when no one would, I would dance in the grocery store, I would be the person to push people into doing something that they wouldn't do.... and now I wish I had that part of me back. 


I try to smuggle my true self with the excuse that I'm being more mature. Last year, I had lied to myself by excepting that being meek was being quiet.... and now I am beginning to understand the real meaning of that verse. Its not a outside action but, a heart action... that verse has nothing with me being quiet exactly but, with me being open to listen continuing to what He says. It has nothing to do with me being quiet! 


Another thing that came out of that time, is me being afraid to trust... its a generational curse. I am afraid of being vulnerable, I'm afraid of getting hurt. And honestly, I hate it... and I have decided I am going to try my hardest, along with Christ, to brake through. For this very thing is entering into my relationship with Christ...and its simply not exceptionable. 
So even though its hard, we have to step into vulnerability even if it hurts... because if we don't then we will forever be in a dull, shallow place. We have to take risks in order to live... its a no brainer! 


So I am walking out of the person I am now, and getting back to the real Kassie...the one full of freedom, Joy, wisdom, and all the other things that I have decided to hide from people because of the level of fear in my heart of getting hurt. It won't be easy but, I have to do this! Because I can't be a healthy leader, if I'm not out of the bondage of fear for myself. God is healing me of this, and He has called me into vulnerability... so be ready Kassie is coming out!

God Fullfils Promises

Friends,
I just had to share the exciting news! The words that have been spoken over me, and the things that God has confirmed are coming true.
Honestly, I've been second guessing those promises... just because I've been waiting so long! But God rewards those who obey, and friends ever sense my Birthday those promises have been answered immediately right after another!
Not only promises but, prayers. I prayed for a place where I could grow in relationships, have practice for the the things that God has called me to and where I can grow in school. Well, on my Birthday guess where I was.. The Daniel Academy. A school built out of IHOP. Its half homeschool, half Christian school and everything I asked for is there!

I prayed that God would bring me opportunities to grow in my calling of being a worship leader...that He has called me to be, and guess what? the music teacher at my school is teaching us in worship and she has offered to help us (me and my sisters)  after school hours with music and different things!

Also been praying about the ministry I've been thinking about, and God has brought different people into my life to partner in this! Also I'm part of the youth leadership team at my youth group... and I'm having so much fun pouring into the lives He is bringing in...which is something I've always wanted!

GOD FULFILLS PROMISES.... but these are prayers right? Well, all these things I've asked God about and He has continually said, "They will be answered." He has promised that these will come true... and that the call to be a worship leader will be, and me being a leader to my generation... That has already happened.

So many things happening, its a bit overwhelming...

Video- Dan Mohler

SO GOOD! Had to share!!!

Enlightenment

Just now as I was reading a article by the Botkin Sisters, I was enlightened by something I've found... Here is a small, effective, part of it...the very part that enlightened me.

"On the other hand, if our days now are introspectively focused on our own personal issues and needs and interests, what makes us think we will suddenly become outward-focused and kingdom-focused when we marry?"

As I read this I started thinking of everything I was going for now, in my singleness. I keep the house clean for my family, I keep the meals for the home steady as I can, I am focusing the things I feel God wants me to accomplish right now, If God's will I might start a group for girls... these last couple of months I didn't understand why my will was not pleasing...and because things were not how I think they should be, I felt as if my singleness was being wasted. Then God called me into a new light and now being reminded of the thing I am doing and pursuing inspite of what I want...I'm finding that what I've always wanted is what I'm doing now!

God is molding my focus outward... and by the new leads in my life I see the prosperity it is bringing in this new perspective.

I'm encouraged, that what I'm doing is right... and I pray it will keep so, and I pray for all of you ladies that are seeking the life on your own homestead one day. But remember that one of the best times to be focused in these ways are now! Think of so many things you can do? Give lessons on crochet to girls, open a book club, do a over the phone devotion with a girl who is going through something trying... we have so many advantages, we must learn to take advantage of them!

So I encourage all of you. have a open mind and explore the opportunities in the Kingdom!

He is Not What He Seems...

A revelation I had this weekend at camp, which I didn't know I really had until this morning, is that the Spirit is so important and fun!


I hardly knew Him until this weekend, where the revelation that he is really a person and not an emotion, or a element but, a very strong relation to the three. I knew this before but, I still treated him as a third wheel to the three!

I thought of him as a element to bring myself to the Lord's heart, and to God's, me not really thinking that the Spirit might want to show me who he was in the realm of the supernatural and just in my life!

Last night, when I was at youth, the Spirit brought a picture of who he is, and what he was doing. I saw him rubbing against us, like Toothless in "How to Train Your Dragon."

The Spirit is that dragon, and as I began to reflect on that movie and the story line I noticed that me seeing that picture was important to understanding the Spirit!



We really don't see the Spirit as we should, we are often afraid of it because of how out-going and free it is! We fight against it like the Vikings fought Toothless, because we don't understand its power and the greatness to its depth... and because of a lack of understanding we push it away in fear, and the lack of wisdom in this area of knowing who he is, is what makes us hold back.

When Hiccup brought down Toothless, he was expecting him to lash out, He wasn't expecting him to be as gentle as he was, and that's how we are, we have an image of what we think the Spirit is and we really have no idea how he is, and we really don't know him at all!

We put a cap on him because were so sure he is going to be this demanding, aggressive, thing that we don't know how to relate with, when really we begin to know him he is not like that at all! When Hiccup first sees that glimmer of gentleness, which is what draws him to Toothless because he realizes, in his heart of hearts, that this dragon is different than what it seems to be like. So it opens up his heart to trust, understanding, and fascination, which are the things that draws us to the Spirit in the first steps of getting to know him.

So then Hiccup makes the effort to know Toothless, and when Toothless sees the truth of Hiccup's heart, and sees Hiccup's trust in him that’s when the friendship takes place, and Toothless takes him to those high places, and when he begins to show him the root cause of injustice and fear, and why some things are the way they are. Like when Toothless, takes him to the nest, Hiccup begins to see the deeper part of troubles that are happening.

After that when they come back, the girl makes a certain remark that I think we can relate to, "You’re going to keep, "finding the nest" a secret, just to save your pet dragon?" Hiccup said yes, like the lot of us would. We say yes a lot of the time because we’re afraid of telling the root problem of our pain, irritation, etc. Having fear that it will hurt our relationship with God, or other people, which is a lie!

It will make those relationships stronger, and give you freedom in a way you never had before! When Hiccup goes to fight the other dragon, he can't do it because he knows that the problem is not the dragon its self but, the root behind its malice is what is driving it to kill the people of the village.

The same can be said for our hearts towards people, we have to remember the root of their attitudes when they are cruel to us! Its often because they excepted the weakness of the enemy and turned their gaze off of God. There is then something under the service that is making them cruel, offensive, prideful, etc. and that’s when we have to have compassion because of their weakness.



Next, in the end, when Hiccup and Toothless destroy the root problem of injustices that have been going on in that presence time, it’s because Hiccup learned to trust, and him and Toothless had a loyalty for each other! When we let ourselves trust and be vulnerable with the Spirit, we become leaders of battle, promise, worship, etc! If you look at Hiccup at the beginning of the movie, and then him at the end there is a difference! He looked past the voices, the difficulties, the rejection, and went for that relationship with love and passion.



When I talked to my mom this morning, the three persons are like a family. God the father, Jesus the son, and the Spirit like the mother. The one who nurtures, and gives guidance, here are some verses that tells this:



26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.



``John 14:26



7 But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I go, I will send Him to you. 8 And He, when He comes, will convict the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment; 9 concerning sin, because they do not believe in Me; 10 and concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father and you no longer see Me; 11 and concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world has been judged.



``John 16:7-11



"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will"



Romans 8:26-27 (NIV)



That last verse serves my last point. If a mother was to leave the family, there would be



complete chaos. The mothering nurturing spirit would not be there to guide the children, keep the house in order (the Church), direct them in relationships, and to help them understand things. How much more would there be if the Spirit was gone from the three? We see it a good bit in our own lives, it still flows enough for us to know God but, when you learn to live by the Spirit that’s when the strength comes, and the good starts to flow from the deepest parts of our core!

So it is to our well being that the Spirit is able to come at the power it does, because the Spirit of God is what brings conviction, wisdom, deliverance, etc. Without living vulnerably to the Spirit, God, Jesus, we are weak!

Self reliant is not strength but weakness, we have accepted the world’s view of strength and we have to learn to live in the drive of the Spirit, and not our own flesh!

Two Songs!

These two songs they sang at camp! I encourage you to worship to these songs they are so powerful in meaning!

This video below, is actually the closest I could find of this song..to show you the type of experience we had at camp! Almost everyone was dancing the last night, it was truely amazing!

Reflections...

So this past weekend I went to my youth group's camp. The theme this year was overflow!
It was so amazing!!! God was just all over the place... in the games, in the fellowship, in the service, in the preperation, just everything.
As I look back to where I was before I went, I see a heart nicely orignized, just not in the right way!
My talents had been moved to a shelf, my thoughts of God had been pretty settle, not as much thought as there should have been. I thought it was alright, I was working on getting the "Ladies of Femininity" things together and to my eyes everything was fine, and to the blind parts of my soul it looked okay. There, even in my blindness, I knew there was hunger that was raging, I could feel it!
If you then looked at the house in my heart in the middle of the weekend, you probably would have seen a ramaged mess! Things were being turned around, stuck in different places, things were on the floor. I was being changed and challenged, far more than I had been the last couple of weeks.
The words that were spoken in the prayers of many who prayed for me was, "That she will have boldness. Give her courage!"
I have been struggling with that, actually sharing my dreams, talents, words, with others in person. Even praying!
So as I stepped out this weekend, got to get to know people I didn't know... praying outloud among people, and just with the presesnce of God on my life and in me getting me to think and push harder, I saw myself in a new light, not shy but, bold! Not silent but, loud! I was pulled from my comfort zone for sure, which I'm glad, my life was getting little to easy, as it can seem to get sometimes!

The last night we were there, last night, a spirit of joy broke into the room we all were in! Some began dancing, others began to clap their hands, and some started laughing. The energy was rapturous, and as we began to be detoxified of the things holding us back and impurities, and as we began to get intoxicated by God and His spirit, I noticed a freedom to do almost anything. I have to admit, I did have second thoughts when the worship began to get crazy, I'm more of a reserved person and it takes the Holy-Spirit to get me out of that and into dancing, and other things. I'm hoping though that I will be able to brake from that, and to take more liberty to speak more!

All in all, the weekend was amazing. It was one of the most refreshing weekend's I've had in a while. Oh, also they had a prayer room and it was so nice just to sit in complete surender to God, and just let His spirit melt your heart! I will, be sharing more later... Now listening to Julie Meyer! Whooo!!! :)

May the spirit lead you, God bless!

Hey

Everyone,
I have been experiencing God like never before... not only Him but his love!
I am reading an amazing book called "Enjoying God" by S.J. Hill. It is a must read for EVERYONE.
I have not only began t understand the jealous love God has for me but, have also experienced awesome things... and learned so much I can't write it down fast enough!


Also I wanted to post this podcast by teacher S.J. Hill... he spoke to us Sunday.
This podcast is so good: Joyful Jesus

I would love if you shared your thoughts on the podcast... :)

The love of God is truly amazing, overwhelming, perfect, precious, so many words!
I wish I had time to share the things I've been learning over the last couple of weeks but... time as I'm learning is a vacuum! :P Love you all... God is so beautiful!

Loving....

I LOVE GOD! He is there even when you mess up... he is the breathing we crave when we drown!...

God has been really pursuing me lately... more than ever before... if that's possiple!

Here are some pictures I've found that I love...

Baking!

Lately, I've been making LOTS of irish soda bread! Its a favorite in our family....

Here is the recipe I use, its super easy:

6 cups of flour (Whole wheat is the yummyist!)

2 cups of buttermilk.

tsp of salt

tsp of baking soda

First mix all dry ingredients together and then make a well in the center and pour in the buttermilk. Then mix to together, into a dough. Then spread flour on a hard service and knead the dough about five times. Then cut a X in the top and put on a greased cookie sheet.

Turn the oven on 350, bake 40 mins. (May take longer.)

I hope you enjoy! :)

13 She looks for wool and flax
And works with her hands in delight. ...

Planning our single years.

Dearest sisters in Christ,
I was listening to Generations with Vision radio broadcast and they were talking about family legacy. Well, Mr. Kevin Swanson said something that really opened my eyes.

"Jesus was on earth for 3 years and he didn't go to congress to get out the word he did it throe relationships."

At this point in the conversation they were talking about the family and making that your legacy, making that your standpoint to get out the word of Christ. Building up nations, with relationships of your children! How true is that?... The next thing they went into was preparing your self for that future helpmeet and getting the bigger picture of starting a family into your head.

Well, this got me to thinking. If Jesus came to earth knowing he only had 3 years, why, out of all places and types of atmosphere did he chose a family type?...I mean if you really think about it he treated his disciples like family going from place to place. He, God/Jesus, didn't go to take over the Roman empire or anything like that. He went to disciple and to build relationships and throe that he brought the word of God to the world. Throe a family type circle!

Girls, Ladies, God only had 3 years to build up that family circle. How many years do we have?...A couple of months ago a question poped in my head.

"If my prince came today would I be ready?"

I knew that answer right away. Nope. (period) We as girls visualize and dream of the day when Prince Charming will come and sweep us on our feet but, we never stop and think of the question above.

As I listened to the broadcast and the "only 3 years" kept coming to my brain. I thought what if God only gave me 3 years to prepare, how would I spend those years? How would I prepare? What are the secret dynamics of being a helpmeet, mother and the running operator of the home? What skills are the most important and what skills, what type of preparedness would be the most helpful to my future husband?...As I thought about these questions I decided to make a list of skills that I knew would be important.

Also I am asking all the godly homemaking moms I know about what skills that they have learned and are the most helpful... Also I'm going to be asking some dads I know, what skill that your wife has is the most helpful?

Girls we need to plan out what we want to learn so when that door opens for you to be a helpmeet, you will know that your single years were spent wisely and that you have all the skills you need to raise up a mighty family for God.

Here are a couple of basic things to learn:

Money Management (This is VERY important! No skipping this one. Big no, no.)

Cooking (We all have to eat)

Baking (Now what man does not like a homemade cake? I know my daddy does! ;))

All the rules of cleaning (I'm still learning this one too)

How to clean (Its one thing to know the rules, Learning is whole other matter entirely)

Plan! (This will come in handy, trust me!)

Order (I've learned that a great place to learn this, is in your room)

The Bible (cover to cover honey, cover to cover ;) If we are going to be helping raise up godly kids we might want to know the basics)

Letting things Go (We need to learn this now that way when the mail gets piled up, we will just be able to say "To the dump with you!")

This is just some....I have a long list! You see I need help picking out the most important ones. :)

Let's not waste these years...let's learn! Let's PREPARE!!!

In Christ,
Kassidy